The “madness” started with the moments when I didn’t know how to develop a head-to-tail plan, I didn’t know composition rules, in short I didn’t know much, the movements of the camera hadn’t entered my reflexes (and here I’m specifically referring to the first year of when I owned a DSLR). The craziness started when I started taking photos almost every day, photos that I didn’t publish because I thought I wasn’t a good enough photographer, or the photos weren’t great, exaggerating the idea for years , although to be honest, I wasn’t shooting bad at all for a beginner. The fact that I spent sleepless nights watching all the YouTube videos related to photography and downloading a bunch of courses from the internet, I thought I was learning first and then going out to put everything I learned into practice. The problem was that no one told me that when you put it into practice, it doesn’t turn out exactly like X and Y said on YouTube (and it was normal that it didn’t turn out great because those photographers already had 10-15-20 years of experience ), and I, not understanding why I couldn’t succeed, put unnecessary pressure on myself and ended up not publishing what I was doing, plus I didn’t want to take jobs out of respect for people, from photo shoots to events, for fear not to disappoint them. Now I honestly realize that I made a huge mistake, I was way too hard on myself and it really wasn’t the case, because in any profession you have to let everything come by itself.